This skin doesn’t feel like home.

You got my back against the wall
And now I can’t ever get comfortable
No I never sold my soul
If I ever do throw my bones to the wolves
No I never sold my soul
No I never sold mine

I’ve been listening to PVRIS a lot lately. I had maybe one, two songs by them previously. But then I saw the recently released music videos for the singles off their August 4th release (“Heaven” and, the one posted here, “What’s Wrong”). After that I downloaded their first album and have only been listening to that, eagerly awaiting the entirety of their next album, of which I have already pre-ordered. There’s something about listening to Lynn sing that makes me feel worthwhile. There’s something in the lyrics, in the melodies, in the presence the band has in their other music videos that has reignited a purpose within myself. To describe it in full would take too long. All that’s important to share is how sometimes all it takes is one lucky find. A book, a movie, an artist, a particular song, a piece of art; PVRIS is that lucky find for me and they have slithered into my bloodstream and warmed the cold trenches that have too long kept me concealed in the shadows. I feel ready to write now. Ready to tackle the fear that’s rooted itself in my core. No more, I say. While belting PVRIS I will rip the suffocating, flesh squeezing weeds from my body and start anew. ♥

Powering through.

Here’s the thing that haunts me the most: that I’m not good enough. I see authors I admire post about signings, events and other amazing things happening with their careers and that damn seed of self-doubt, of fear, of bitterness is planted. It creeps back in and freezes my fingers on the keyboard. It’s the worst feeling in the world.

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Eyes like a car crash.

A week into it and this new project and I have had our good days and our bad days. We’re teetering on the fence of more good than bad as of late and I thank this song for that. One of the few on the present playlist, the tone and lyrics set me right in the thick of the plot and it is often on constant repeat. Ladies and gentlemen, this musical interlude is brought to you by Bring Me the Horizon.

I watch you like a hawk
I watch you like I’m gonna tear you limb from limb
Will the hunger ever stop?
Can we simply starve this sin?

Oblivion and peace.

I wanted to share a video from my favorite band. No, seriously. They are my #1 in my Top 5, 10, etc… Poets of the Fall is a Finnish alternative rock band. This is a group that blends harmonies and melodies like I’ve never heard before. I discovered them after watching a MirrorMask fan-made video that used one of their earlier songs, “Illusion and Dream.” From that moment I was hooked and sought out their first album. Seven albums later and I am as in love with them now than when I first heard them.

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